Chapter 1: The Girl
I entered my room crying. Darkness accompanied the silence that
was inside. Loneliness burned me.
“My life is horrible,” I said out loud.
"*I know,*" a soft voice answered.
"Ah, you were there."
"*Yes, as always.*"
"I thought you were gone."
"*No.*"
There was total silence. I only heard my tears hitting my pillow as they fell.
"*Tell me, why are you crying today?*" asked the voice.
"Because I am a failure. Let's just say it's the same thing as always."
"*Oh Yes. Knowing you have nothing to live for makes you want to cry.*"
"I wish I'd never been born."
"*How about we do it?*"
"If we do it? If we do what?"
"*We jumped from the roof of the building.*"
"We jump?"
"*Yes, it will be easier.*"
Silence again.
"I really wished to be everything I dreamed of."
Silence.
"Okay, let's jump."
"*Are you ready?*"
Again, silence.
"*Okay, let's go to the roof.*"
I walked barefoot through the hallways of the building. Each step I gave was soft and delicate as if I wanted to leave only an ephemeral trace of my presence in that place. With determination and confidence in my movements, I climb the steps, one by one, without hesitation, braving
the coldness of the ground under my bare feet. The ceramics woke me up while I thought about what would be the last sound I would hear, whether the wind in my ears as I fell or the explosion of my body against the concrete of the street.
I finally reached the door; it was open. It was always open because the neighbors hung their clothes there, after washing them.
"I would have liked someone to care."
"*Are you going to miss you?*" asked the voice behind me.
"You finally answered. Are you going to miss me?"
Silence.
I was alone, there was no one to stop me. I stood on the edge of the
ledge and without thinking about the consequences for others, I jumped. I must have fainted because my question was never answered. The last
thing I heard was a “*Goodbye*” from the voice that's always with me. That voice that's inside my head every day and is my only companion.
Voices, release date: Oct 30. Amazon. In English and Spanish.
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